That evening...........
She : Gimana dong cintaku???
Aku dah berusaha mati-matian melupakannya
Aku ga bisa lupa
Aku cemburu kalo dia udah balik ke rumah trus kumpul ma keluarganya
Aku pengeeenn banget ma dia
Aku sayaaannng banget ma dia
Aku harus gimana???
She keeps asking me, keeps sulking me, keeps locating her head beside my shoulder and keep waiting for my answer, my suggestion, my advice, my solution….
Me : Silent.
Nothing to say……..
She : Cintaku kamu ngomong dong. Jangan diem gitu terus..
Apa aku harus cari kesibukan lain ya?
Cintaku please….. say something for me.
Me : Still cannot say a single word….
I was stared at her with confusing mind
She was staring at me with fool and bewildered looking too.
A few minutes then….
Me : Will you listen to me? Will you listen to what I’m gonna say?
Then, after listening, will you do what I’m gonna say?
She : Silent …
Nothing to say……
She : Kamu kok jahat sih sama aku?
Me : Silent again
Don’t you know my heart is in war!!!!!
I know I am stupid. So stupid for letting her choosing this way when the 1st time she told me to have this ‘fucking’ romance. I should have said right in front of her to keep the step out of that circle.
Then now….. she already had that feeling.
She has involved her heart into it. The most unwanted thing to do in an affair…..
Me : I do realize: all my words, all my advice, all my suggestion are useless when someone slave her/his heart to the affair.
In an affair, you’ll only face a wall that will let you stay in with no way to get out unless you want to be a wall breaker and finally be a winner….
I’m not mothering you but I’m just trying to share………..
She : silent…and smile
Then, I sang aloud
“janji di atas ingkar……..”
She smile and hugged me…..
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